July 2

Well it's been awhile since I've written anything but today the kids
and my mom went to the beach I just slept in ordered food and got on
facebook. Apparently a teacher from the high school had gotten
arrested for having sex with a 17year old girl, it wasn't like we all
didn't already know this dude does this all the time these girls love
this guy. So we shall see what's gonna happen with that, yesterday I
talked to Lisa C.<3 for just over a half hour. I wish she wasn't so
far away. Other then that I've been working my sister got a Job as
well., and wawa has been treating me well for the most part, I've been
having trouble with some things, wawa is not an easy job at times., I
got a larger iPod touch last week, that's about it. I'm okay as of now.

Rocks

Well recently, I really haven't been talking lately on the blog as I
used to. It is really been an internal Struggle within myself to keep
happy, I really don't like this living day by day thing. I barely work
this week so I have nothing to do for a majority of the week, I am
working thru the fireworks on forth of July, which is fine but I would
like to have been working some more this week I'm working 19 hours
which is quite less then my norm. Which is going to set me back a week
or even two for this car thing ughh. I really need to get out of this
chaos I cause within myself. I'm not depressed I'm just not happy more
then half of the time it sucks, and the fact that nothing is going the
way I want it to. I miss so many people, and i can go on and on but
fact is I want to be happier =/

Thanks Ali

Last Night I needed someone to talk to, and a girl by the name of Ali
C talked to me for like over an hour. thanks Ali =] you made me feel
better.

CrushCrushCrush

CrushCrushCrush,
Yeah, like I'm gonna tell you. =P

Lost... follow up,

I'm gonna keep it short, As I wrote yesterday I felt okay with what
was going on for the most part, and as I returned to work, today. I
was in such a great mood, I was bubbly for the majority of the day,
however as I lay here in bed Im thinking what do I have to be proud
of... Not much. Yet I'll continue to remain postive, wonder how long
it will last =\

Lost.

So lately I've been finding out more about who I want to be, I'm
starting to feel I've missed to many oportunities, figuring that I
should worry about the short term and not the long time, it's an
endless war to stay happy. I've let to many things go. I need to go
back to school, but I'm not sure what tho. I am really really wishing
I knew what to do, my sister is pissing me off lately. She has her
path set for the next few years, granted she's worked so very hard to
get where she's at, I just wish that I was on some sort of track, and
it really really bothers me I'm not able to look past the month. So
much is going on yet. I'm content with the fact that I'm lacking any
direction in my life., sad I know. As far as who's in my life., close
friends are non exsistant, LaMaia lives elsewhere now, I really miss
her. Sarah I see her at mywawa every now and then, I see layla now and
then. But no one is really close anymore. It's just how it worked
out., I'm still single. Which Is fine, I'm not crushing over anyone
either. I have my eyes on no one, maybe she's gonna find me., as far
as work goes I really like it, for the most part I like everyone. As
for my time off, I've been listening to alot of music, I really like
Paramore, the early November, Hanson, and a few others. I think Hayley from paramore is cute (: I continue to feel Lost yet content with the fact that I will figure out what I'm going to do with my life. My life seems like a broken record. Yet
I'll continue to smile =]


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Hellosteve

The other day (Tuesday) my wawa store celebrated 25 years with a
party, several photos where taken I put them in album 5, other then
that next week my sister graduates, nothing really to write about.

Ugh.

Ugh.
I'm not happy

A trip to Quantico

Today, I spent most of my day heading to and from Quantico Virginia.
With my grandfather... We had to pick up some papers at the military
base.. That's about it... Yeah other then that I'm good, Everything is
good.

I Did It

I reset my iTunes, somehow lost all my playlist and count settings.
Some of my music was lost inside the computer, Found it tho. idk

wish things were normal

I don't even know what is normal, seriously. I'm a goof at times. I
have a strange and goofy personality, if thown into the right
enviroment. I am not the least bit upset, about anything right now.
Intact I'm quite happy. I am just more annoyed with things, how my
social situation has gotten a little worse, I'm losing touch with some
people, I used to talk to these people all the time. Now it's barely
at all. And School, this is going to eat at me. I don't know what I'm
going to do for my life, i'm losing touch with everyone I ever
considered a close friend. Things can never be the way I want the, I
understand and accept that. It is just I'm lacking love and sense of
future. No direction has shown me down a path of unhappiness, before.
I don't want to be unhappy. I need to find my path. Even If there are
a few holes to get myself out of first. One more thing, the people at
work made me smile more over the last few days. Then I had all month.
Maybe I'm just more comfortable. Well that's about It. :)

What's On Steve's iTunes

Out Of the 895 Songs I Have Right Now On My iTunes Here's Some Of The Most Played


1. Hair - The Early November [Watch Video]
2. Don't Panic Coldplay [Watch Video]
3. I Don't Want To Be In Love - Good Charlotte [Watch Video]
4. Shake It  - Metro Station [Watch Video]
5. Everything Is Alright - Motion City Sound Track [No Video Avail]
6. Awakening - Switchfoot [Watch Video]
7. I Still Remember - Bloc Party [Watch Video]
8. Mr Bright Side - The Killers [Watch Video]
9.Banana Pancakes - Jack Johnson [Watch Video]
10. Emergency - Paramore [Watch Video]

These are some of the most listened to songs on my ipod haha.


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